Coming out of the Dark

Saturday, December 31, 2005

Seasons of...

Five hundrend twenty five thousand six hundred minutes
Five hundrend twenty five thousand moments so dear
Five hundrend twenty five thousand six hundred minutes
How do you measure, measure a year
In daylight, sunsets,
in midnights,
in cups of coffee,
In inches, in miles
in laughter in strive,
In Five hundrend twenty five thousand six hundred minutes
How do you measure a year in the life
(chorus)
How about Love
how about love
how about love
measure in love
seasons of love
seasons of love

Five hundrend twenty five thousand six hundred minutes
Five hundrend twenty five thousand journeys to plan
Five hundrend twenty five thousand six hundred minutes
how do you measure the life of a woman or a man
In truth that she learned or in times that he cried
In the bridges she burned
or the way that he died
Its time now to sing out
though the story never ends
lets celebrate remember a year in the life of friends

Happy New Year to each and every one of you :)
May the New Year bring happiness to all . Sending white light out to you!
Peace*,
Mad

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Friday, December 30, 2005

Family "Dynamics"

Yup, that's how I refer to the fucked up goings on between various members of our clan..Last night was my family's Christmas together, meaning my brother's and respective spouses and kids. All but one brother was there- He and his opted out, as the host family and they seem to have some issues.I guess it goes way back, stupid shit, really- One guy's wife can be a bitch- seriously, but I have found over the years how easily she can be put in her place, and have mastered the art of doing so with a smile on my face.
The brother who was absent is my favorite brother, D.. I adore him and I had mixed feelings about being there without them, I mean, all things aside they are family, and we should all be together on these occasions. But, alas, his choice. I do know that his wife and daughters are not comfortable around the other Bro and company, and are clearly not treated as warmly as the rest of us by them, so yeah, I'd say fuck em' and stay away, too. We did have xmas eve with that brother and his fam, just me and my boys, and I actually liked it better because the kids got to hang out (they are very close) and we got to visit and relax without 20 other people meandering around.
I have, however, resolved to resolve this crap- It's not my deal, I know, but I love every one of them, faults and all, and it hurts to see anyone left out, by their own choice or not.. Now, how to go about this will be tricky, first I have to get them in a mutual place - that's easy- Next, to approach this gently- I have a knack for saying what's on my mind- not in a cruel way, but as my brothers affectionately describe me "No flies on her" and "one never has to guess what she's thinking"..I've found this an effective way to communicate, and most people appreciate it, actually..Okk, so there is yet another part of my boring life- trying to fix all that is broken and live in peace and harmony among my brothers. Now if I look at my own relationship..uugh!! Maybe that's why I'm so focussed on this- I so don't want to deal with b/f and my own issues just yet.. I see a goodbye in my future. Hopefully planning this mini- Oprah reunion will put off my planning of his demise (FIGURATIVELY, of course), and who knows, maybe he'll see the light before he gets the Heave-ho.. Off to shop andthink more on this..

Thanks everyone for welcoming me back :) You can't know how good it feels to know you're all there. And there's some Gooooood shit to read here!!! LOLOL Damn, I missed you all!!!
Peace*,
Mad

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Wednesday, December 28, 2005

It seems like a good idea...

So I'm here. Need to get my ass in gear and spiff things up a bit, so for awhile my blog will look like a fucking 3 year old designed it, but WTF, the words and sentiments will still be here. So now tell me what you all have been up to? I've missed reading you daily and have done a little catch-up but you know, that'll take me like forever, and someone will be sittin here next to me wiping the drool off my chin and checking my depends for moisture before I finish all there is to see :)
Just thought I was finally ready for a change- I miss my "real" friends- you, know, the ones who are kind, and funny and down to earth- not blowing sunshine up each other's asses every 5 minutes. I've learned alot about people these past few months. Remember the pic of the wolf with the sheepskin over there? Well, he's still rearing his stupid head, but thinks he's the "invisible wolf".. I hate people who think they are clever with everyone.. The word Karma keeps popping up..wonder why?
So not much interesting to say today, or actually just I'm too lazy.. Catch up with you peeps later :)
Peace*,
Mad

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